On uncertainty, diet and meditation.

For the past few days I have been relatively silent. For this, I don’t apologize. There was a lot going on in my life and many challenges that required my undivided attention. There are some paths in life that you simply cannot avoid and have to take. Walk the walk, I have heard.

Never be sure of anything in life. Things change all the time, even the most solid foundations of houses shatter during an unexpected quake. I thought that some things in my life were meant to be, and will be there forever with me; and sadly I was disappointed. It was my mistake to delude myself that everything would last forever.

Somehow, perhaps due to my constant introspection on the impermanence of all things, I was able to handle it somewhat gracefully, without causing much harm to all parties involved, including myself. It was an invaluable lesson of impermanence, and that everything that came together will fall apart eventually.

Not to say that such things will not reform again, but as I said before, you never know.

Physically, I feel weaker this week, as I had not eaten much food for the past few days, sometimes going as low as a few slices of bread per day, or nothing at all. Why do I put myself through this kind of diet? Well there was no proper cause or target. I just didn’t eat because somehow I did not feel like eating. Rigorous physical exercise was not followed as well.

I also discovered that meditating on thought objects seem to send me into deeper levels of samadhi than meditation on natural breathing. Perhaps this is because the mind is focusing on itself, rather than an external source of stimuli. That’s just my opinion. You should try it out if you like. Just visualize an image or repeat a phrase over and over again in your mind (Om Mani Padme Hum and Buddho are worldwide favourites). Of course if you don’t meditate and rather watch TV, do that.

Are the three topics of discussion inter-related? I don’t know. That’s your problem now, isn’t it?

~ by Prageeth Thoradeniya on August 24, 2010.